Worst day I’ve had in a long long time. I feel like shit. I feel like a whale walking down the hallways at school and I hate it. I feel like nothing I ever do is good enough. I never cycle fast enough, I never run far enough, I never do my workouts long enough, it’s fucking ridiculous. I’m never gonna be good enough for myself. It’s been two years. And I hoped by now I’d have tackled this and left it in the past, but it’s still controlling me, every minute of every day.